JOURNEY TO A BETTER SELF

by - September 27, 2017

Dear readers,

I am finally back with a short update as I have yet the time to blog comprehensively. The past two months has been filled with joy, sadness, thrills, excitements, disappointments, heartbreaks, and the list goes on. It has been just two months, but lots have happened in my life. 

First and foremost, I went through and still am going through a heart break. That's right, my now ex-boyfriend and I have mutually decided to end our 4.5 years relationship. It was a tough call for the both of us and we believe that it's for the best for both parties. As to date, it has already been 3 months and I believe we both are still in the process of healing. To those who talked to the both of us individually, to those who prayed so hard that we will work things out, to those that has been constantly concern about us, to those who has been so so worried about me, I thank you from the bottom of my heart to have reached out to us. I do hope you guys will support us in our decision that we believe it's for the best. 

On top of that, my grandmother passed away just 4 days before my final exam started. It broke me even more as I was planning to fly to Penang to visit her the following weekend. When my mum updated me about how my grandmother's health was deteriorating pretty fast, I had a feeling that I wouldn't be able to make it in time to see her and I was right. The morning after the phone call with my mum, my grandmother passed away peacefully in her sleep. As much as I still wished to be able to have seen her one last time, I am still glad and happy that she no longer needs to suffer. Rest in peace, Grandma. I hope you'll be able to witness my convocation and every one of my milestones in life from above. 

Thirdly, I have finally graduated! Yes, like finally. Since July. Haha. Results are also out and I can't be happier for what I have achieved in my tertiary education. From someone who almost flunked her SPM and her spirit was completely broken to even have the confidence to ace her tertiary studies, she did. And this goes out to my parents and family who believed and supported me, and to those who has been there for me throughout my entire 4 year journey. Thank you!

If you have been following me on my Instagram, you would know that I have been traveling since August! Yep, close to 2 months of literally living out of a suitcase. I was in Perth, Australia with my high school buddy, Belle, like finally we got to go on a vacation together since we both now have the time and resources to do so. I was then in Europe for about a month with my family as our ultimate family vacation together, as well as a graduation present for me. The day after I landed back home, I went off again to Phuket, Thailand with Sabrina and Jessica, my university girlfriends, for a little graduation vacation that we have planned right after exams. I only wished May and Melanie could have joined us as well. 

Will definitely blog about my trip as soon as I am done with editing thousands of my travel photos from 3 different cameras, and hundreds of vlog footages too! Amazing times it was and it definitely sucks to be back to reality already! 2 months really flew by in a blink of an eye but all good things must come to an end. As of now, I am busy settling and moving in to my new place and also this new phase of life. I am definitely the lucky one to be offered for a job almost immediately after graduation and yes, I accepted the offer.

These travel plans definitely came in at the right time. When I was still in university, I had my studies and projects to distract me. After graduation, I am so so thankful for the travel plans waiting for me. Without it, I probably would have went crazy with my thoughts. It is also when I am able to be elsewhere, somewhere new, somewhere foreign, that I am able to think a little better and clearer. I needed a bit of a fresh new air although it was just temporarily. It was like running into a dream for a little while before facing reality again. And now that I am back, I have a job waiting for me. 

I was lost, clueless, didn't had a direction. My mum prayed to God for me hoping that I will heal and feel better soon, to leave me clue for what is next, and her prayers were answered, and everything fell into place almost so perfectly that it was hard for me to believe. Although I am still looking for my field of interest, and what I really want to do, I will seize every opportunity given to me and give my very best at it. 

Here's to rediscovering myself, to be better than I was. 


This is one of my favourite shots taken in Oia, Santorini, Greece. 

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